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  Evil tastes like candy, he wrote.

  He smiled at this. He cast another quick glance at Emma, then returned his attention to his teacher, who stood at the front of the class holding a tattered old copy of Othello in his hand. With the other hand, Weaver yanked down the hem of his blue sweater-vest. The teacher was talking about the result of Iago’s deceit, the end of the play.

  In his mind, Jonathan pictured Weaver in a long white robe, his sweaty head like a pale pumpkin on top of a draped table. The teacher was stomping back and forth, pointing his finger at Anni Moss, the way he’d used it to pick out Jonathan to answer his question. He imagined Weaver screaming at Anni and lunging forward, grabbing her around the neck and strangling her like Othello did to his wife, Desdemona. Anni’s body fell to the linoleum floor, her blond hair fanning out from her lifeless face. Then Weaver pulled out a dagger and said, “I kiss’d thee ere I kill’d thee: no way but this/Killing myself, to die upon a kiss.” Then he plunged the knife into his chest. But instead of opening him up and drawing blood, the blade popped the plump teacher like a balloon, causing him to soar around the room making farting noises as he deflated.

  Jonathan chuckled at the daydream, looked around to make sure no one was noticing, particularly Emma O’Neil. He’d freak if he saw her looking at him like he was a psych-ward reject. Fortunately, Emma was focused on her notes. But to his surprise and embarrassment, someone else was noticing.

  She sat three rows ahead of him and to the left, by the window. Her name was Kirsty Sabine, and she was new at Westland High. She was a bland-looking girl with straight dirty-blond hair that fell to her shoulders like a rough cloth. Her face wasn’t ugly, but it wasn’t pretty, either. It was just plain. Jonathan quickly looked away when he noticed her looking at him. She was even smiling, like they shared the same joke, like she’d seen his thoughts and found the idea of their teacher farting through the room and growing smaller as funny as Jonathan did.

  He looked at his notepad, and the first thing he saw was the line Evil tastes like candy. He took his pen and scribbled it out.

  As expected, he made it halfway to his history class before the Roid Patrol locked their sights on him. He didn’t see them coming up from behind, but suddenly he was thrown off balance, his feet lifted off the ground. He hit the wall of lockers hard, causing the dangling combination locks to clatter like applause. His books slid along the floor, and he barely kept his face from joining them. But he’d learned to recover quickly from such attacks. He looked around at the smiling faces passing him in the hall, wondering how many people had seen this latest humiliation (Not Emma, he thought. Please not Emma). Then he stopped looking, realizing it didn’t matter if she was an eyewitness to the event. Everyone in school already knew Jonathan was the Roid Patrol’s tackling dummy.

  “Nice!” Toby Skabich said with a throaty laugh. He whipped his hand in the air to high-five Merle Atkins (whom everybody called “Ox”). Next to them Cade Cason was doubled over with laughter. They celebrated tossing Jonathan against the lockers as if it were some brilliant football strategy, rather than a daily occurrence that took no more thought or skill than crushing an empty soda can.

  Jonathan said nothing. What was the point? He couldn’t take them in a fight. No way. Even one on one, he probably couldn’t have done much more than land a lucky punch (maybe on Toby…no way on Ox or Cade).

  Jonathan was built small. Not only was he shorter than most of the other juniors, he was slender. His arms were like twigs, and there didn’t seem to be much he could do about it. He’d spent an entire summer going to the YMCA to lift weights, and at home he chugged protein shakes—anything he thought might add some bulk to him—but he was still “Little Jonathan,” hardly any different than he’d been in junior high school. His mother told him it was the way God made him and he might as well get used to it. So he avoided confrontations with the Roid Patrol, kept his mouth shut. He might be able to get away with throwing lip at Mr. Weaver (because teachers couldn’t really do anything), but the Roid Patrol could hurt him, and they would if he gave them a reason to.

  Still laughing and clapping each other on the back, Toby, Ox, and Cade turned into a classroom at the end of the hall. Jonathan knelt down to get his books as other kids pushed past him, eyeing him and smiling, knowing what had occurred whether they had seen it or not.

  “Jerks,” Jonathan muttered, addressing all of the students, not just the Roid Patrol. Only a handful of kids at Westland High were even remotely cool to him. They nodded to him in the hall, exchanged smart-ass remarks with him in classes. Like the occasional greeting from Emma O’Neil, these interactions were too brief and led to no close friendships. Fact was, he was on his own. He didn’t know why. It wasn’t like any of the cliques handed out a checklist, telling you why they hated you. His friend David, who unfortunately had been transferred to the “gifted program” at Melling High last year, said it was because Jonathan didn’t “try” to fit in. So the kids didn’t know what to do with him.

  “You’re not weird enough to be a geek. Not big enough to be a jock. You’re too smart to be a burner. With the way you dress, you’ll never join the FBI” (a David-created acronym standing for Fashion Before Intellect). “You are a unique beast among the herd, and they are bound to see you as a predator or prey.”

  Great, Jonathan thought, standing up with his books clutched in his arms. Obviously the herd had decided on prey.

  At least his humiliation was complete for the day. The Roid Patrol never struck twice, and his history teacher, Mrs. Locke, was cool—as boring to watch as a snail, but fine. Furthermore, it was Friday. That meant he had two full days to put Westland High out of his head, before he once again had to step into its dangerous halls.

  Of course, that meant two days without seeing Emma O’Neil. That would suck, but at least his shoulder would have a chance to heal.

  He couldn’t know that certain events would occur over the weekend—events that would change Westland High and his life forever.

  Jonathan’s home was an apartment in a vast, flat complex north of town. The single-story buildings sat like a hedge maze on a rise above a rocky, nasty field of scrub grass. The white paint on the apartment’s walls was graying and glum. It had been that way since his father moved the family in four years ago. It needed a fresh coat of white. But the apartment complex management didn’t care, and his father didn’t believe in “putting money into other people’s property.” Truth was, his father didn’t believe in putting money much of anywhere that didn’t include a betting window or a bar. Jonathan gave up on any hope of an allowance when he was ten years old. Instead, he worked odd jobs in the summers until he turned sixteen; then he filled out an application and was hired by Bentley Books in the mall, working a couple of nights a week and Saturdays.

  The job wasn’t going to make him rich or even raise his standard of living. He saved his money for the sole purpose of getting out of town once he graduated from Westland High. Oh, he might crack into his account if Emma agreed to go out on a date with him, but likely that would signal the apocalypse or something. Though his meager savings were not likely to pay for four full years of college, it was a start.

  Jonathan walked into the apartment. The lights were off, and he wondered if his father forgot to pay the bill again, or if his mother just never got around to turning them on. He tested the light switch. The half-globe fixture in the middle of the living room came on, and he sighed with relief.

  In his room he dropped his worn knapsack on the bed and went to his desk. He lifted the phone from its cradle and heard his mother’s voice, thin and distorted, skittering over the line. He could tell by how fast she was talking that his aunt, Judy, was on the other end. His mom was always on the phone with her. Every day. Of course, the length of the call depended on how pissed off with his father she was. When William Barnes did something epically stupid—about once a week these days—Jonathan’s mother could tie up the phone line for hours, which meant he could f
orget about checking his email or IM-ing with David.

  “Splentastic,” he muttered, shaking his head.

  Jonathan turned on his computer and waited for the old machine to boot up. The Dell was a hand-me-down. It was his brother Hugh’s computer, left behind when he took a job on a fishing boat in Alaska with a brand-new Mac laptop he’d won in an internet contest. The Dell wasn’t bad, and David had come over one afternoon to install about a thousand bucks’ worth of software. It wasn’t state of the art, but it would do.

  Jonathan was used to making do.

  From The Book of Adrian, Fri. Oct. 7:

  It’s all about fear. Nothing is so frightening as being powerless. In order to feel control, they humiliate and abuse that which they perceive as different. They bolster their own fragile egos, their own worth, by humiliation and attack. It doesn’t matter if the target is as small as an ant, being fried by a magnifying glass, or as fragile as a butterfly whose wings they tear away with the glee of a child opening a gift. I own this, they think. I control this, and in those moments of petty destruction, they affirm their mastery over something, because deep down, way down where the fear of the dark lives, they know they control nothing.

  But I do.

  And now, I hold the magnifying glass. I grasp their fragile wings between my fingers.

  Isn’t that right, Mr. Weaver?

  2

  The usual weekend crowd gathered at Bentley Books, wandering through the aisles of new releases and guzzling coffee in the café at the back. Near a cart of books that needed to be shelved in the Self Help section, Jonathan and David stood looking at a hottie in tight jeans bent over to retrieve a diet book from the bottom shelf.

  “Explain this to me,” David said. “She weighs like five pounds, and she’s going to buy a diet book?”

  “Skeletal is still the rage.”

  “Which book do you think she’s going to take?”

  “I don’t know,” Jonathan said, closely eyeing the denim hugging the girl’s backside. She shifted her weight in a motion that went straight to Jonathan’s head. “But I hope it takes her a long, long time to find it.”

  David laughed and swatted Jonathan’s shoulder. “Amen,” he said.

  Whereas Jonathan was small of build and thin as a reed, David was a hefty kid with a buzz cut, a round face, wire-framed glasses, and pale blue eyes. They’d been friends for more than three years, and until David’s parents had sent him off to Melling, they were nearly inseparable. After Jonathan was hired by Bentley Books, David applied for a position himself, though he certainly didn’t need the money. David’s dad created software for companies to streamline manufacturing protocols or something like that. David’s college tuition was secured long before his birth.

  “It’s kind of hypnotic,” David said, cocking his head to the side as if the motion would give him a new perspective on the girl’s backside. “It’s like a perfect denim buoy, floating in the ocean, and I must reach out and grab it.” To emphasize his point, David extended his hands and clutched at the air like he was testing the firmness of two water balloons. “It’s a matter of life and death. It’s a hormonal imperative.”

  “Explain that to the ambulance driver while he’s icing down your crotch, because she will knee you so hard you’ll know what your children would taste like.”

  “SAW,” David said with a laugh. SAW was David-speak for sick and wrong.

  “We should get back to work,” Jonathan said, but made no move to change his position against the cart.

  Even when the girl found the book she was looking for and stood up, he kept looking at her. She was thin. Probably too thin. But Jonathan had to admit she was the kind of girl he dreamed about. She had the same figure as Emma, and he liked that. Next to a girl like her, he wouldn’t look quite as much like a stick figure.

  “Come back,” David whispered when the girl disappeared behind a row of shelves. “Must…touch…your…”

  “Gentlemen?” Both Jonathan and David turned, startled.

  Stewart Houseman, the assistant manager, stood beside them. Stewart was a chubby man in his forties with short graying hair and skin the color of cookie dough. The fat in his face weighed down his features, making him look perpetually tired. His eyes were clear though, sharp, and right now they looked amused.

  “Hey, Stewart,” David said. “We were just taking a little break.”

  “I know what you were doing,” Stewart said. “Just don’t be so obvious in the future? We don’t want a lawsuit.”

  Jonathan’s face felt red. He looked at his friend, and David was blushing too.

  “And,” Stewart continued, “if I’m not mistaken, you’re supposed to be in General Fiction, aren’t you, Jonathan?”

  “Yeah,” he said. “I was just helping David with the cart.”

  “Well, he seems to be doing just fine, so why don’t you head on over? I’m sure a lot of customers would like your input on which new ‘chick-lit’ tome they should pick up for the beach.”

  Yeah. Way funny, Jonathan thought. Stewart was cool enough, for an assistant manager, but his little game of acting all intellectual got really old. Unfortunately, Stewart was the boss, so Jonathan nodded his head.

  “We’ll get some liquid speed on break,” David said. “See ya.”

  “Yeah. See ya.”

  Jonathan was shelving a dozen copies of the new Stephen King paperback when he heard about Mr. Weaver. He was reading a descriptive paragraph on the back cover (even though he had a copy of the book sitting on the floor by his bed at home) when he heard a woman say:

  “He taught English at my son’s school.”

  “Oh dear,” another woman replied. “The children will be so upset.”

  “Not if he was anything like my English teacher was.”

  “That’s terrible,” the second woman said with a nervous laugh. “Do they know who did it?”

  “No, they just found the body this morning.”

  Jonathan eased closer to the shelves to listen. He could not see the women, but they were directly across from him in the next aisle. Their conversation was as clear as the Muzak on the store’s speakers, though far more interesting.

  “Xander called me from the police station. He has the early shift, and he said Weaver was smothered.”

  Mr. Weaver, Jonathan thought, startled. He dropped the paperback but quickly snatched it out of the air before it hit the shelf.

  “Smothered? Oh, that’s so awful.”

  “I know. The idea terrifies me. Not being able to breathe. Xander said it could have taken up to three minutes before he died. Now, can you just imagine that? Trying to breathe and struggling and knowing someone wants to kill you? Three minutes would seem like hours.”

  “So awful,” the second woman repeated. “Who found him?”

  “Well, that’s the really weird part. His neighbors found him…because he was in their tree.”

  “Their tree?”

  “That’s right. Whoever killed him hauled his body fifteen feet in the air and threw him over a branch and left him.”

  The women walked away, still talking about the tragic event, leaving Jonathan stunned. He didn’t know how to feel about this news. Sure, Weaver was an ass, but this was a totally screwed-up situation. Dead? Murdered? Smothered? Draped on a tree branch like a bit of laundry left to dry? He felt bad for Mr. Weaver. He also felt really weird because he’d never known anyone who’d died before. Even Jonathan’s grandparents were still alive, though he rarely got a chance to see them.

  Jonathan put the book on the shelf and turned to go find David so he could share the news, but saw Stewart at the end of the aisle. The assistant manager had his arms crossed, nodding his head, chatting with a customer. Stewart threw a glance in Jonathan’s direction, letting him know that he was watching and would only take so much dis’ before getting all Trump on Jonathan’s ass.

  Telling David would have to wait until their break. Thirty minutes. It seemed like way too long to hold
this information in.

  Three minutes would seem like hours.

  Jonathan picked up another handful of books and began placing them on the shelf.

  “You hated the guy, though. Right?” David asked, clutching his double espresso in his pudgy hand.

  “He was crappy to me, but I didn’t want him dead.”

  “Or did you?” David asked, leaning across the table. His eyes gleamed the way they always did when he was joking around. “I bet you snapped like a glow stick and got all R. Kelly. You decided it was time to teach the word jockey a lesson, so you snuck over to his house and…PAC!”

  “PAC?”

  “Popped a cap,” David said, lifting his cup for another sip.

  Jonathan laughed, despite finding the whole subject unnerving. “They said he was smothered. Besides, how could I get his body fifteen feet into a tree? He weighed like a thousand pounds.”

  “Don’t mock the girth,” David said, patting his belly. “Whoever did it probably hauled him up there with some rope.”

  “But why do it?” Jonathan wanted to know. “I mean, it’s just creep-show stupid.”

  “Maybe they wanted to play piñata.”

  “Come on,” Jonathan said.

  “What? I don’t know who’d off him, but my guess is the cops’ll have caught the guy before the evening news. I mean, someone had to see something.”

  “I guess.”

  Mr. Weaver’s death hung over him like a light, scratchy sheet. He even felt guilty for imagining the guy popping like a balloon, which was stupid, he knew. But he couldn’t help feeling it.

  He wanted to talk about something else, so he reached across the table and lifted the book David had brought with him on break. Turned out this distraction was little better than what it was meant to distract. The cover was black with red lettering.

  History of the Occult, the title read.

  “You’ve got to be kidding.”